I'm already happy. Why do I need as much money as some of my friends. Yeah I see them role up in that benz they paid cash for.. Never mind they live on a estate and have the business sense to buy and sell properties in dubai + the cash. Yet her house is a mess.. ectr ectr..
I'm happier then I have ever been. So why should I be jealous.. But I am. I hate to admit it.. but I am jealous.. Maybe its because I once lived in luxury. I wonder to myself why has God denied me some money why people I feel are less them me have more.. Or maybe that is the problem.... I am proud.. I think I'm better than everyone else.. Why do I deserve money. Surely the people in africa are much better people than me.. they are honest even when they are starving. So what gives me the right to think I deserve even the money that God has given me already. Why am I ungrateful for what I already have??
I am so blessed.. I am happy and have a great family! I am debt free! I eat more than enough which is evident by the roll in my tummy ( I need to lose that). My kids are healthy!
Yet here I am sitting here dreaming I am a millionaire.. buying properties in dubai.. england... and Makkah. I am jealous of my friend whose husband makes that kind of money. I am upset with my own husband for not pushing himself harder and making more money. I am upset that I have to stay home and watch the kids because I can't afford to start earning money. This must be wrong to think this way!
Nope I should be happy for what I have. I am sure it is alot more than most people. I should be happy for my friend and wish her the very best. After all I had the choice to have a happy family or money. And I chose a happy family!
Which is why I guess having choices really bites. You buy a house.. and afterwards you look down the street and say.. oh I should have gone for that house .. its only 10,000 more.
You buy a car and you think... why did I buy this car?
YOu have kids and you think I should have waited just a lil longer and saved more money! And got on an excercise regime.
I'm already happy so why do I need money?
September 1st, 2006 at 03:30 am
September 1st, 2006 at 01:47 pm 1157118425
Things come and go. Family and health is what's most important. Not sure if that helps.